So, I got booked off work for two weeks… Turns out that, without realising it, I’d spiralled down into a depressive episode during the past few months.
As Murphy’s Law would have it, I only really realised that it was depression and not just being tired when I almost hit rock bottom. Oops.
The good news is that I’m feeling better now after some rest and a change to my meds. More good news is that my brain seems to be working again and I feel more creative than I was feeling in some time. Yay!
In other news, I’ve added to my Medium articles one entitled “When You Need a Break Because Of Depression and Burnout” (wonder where I got that idea from…). Here’s an excerpt as well.
A Perfect Storm
I see my psychologist, walking to the office with limbs so heavy I feel like I’m barely moving. It’s tears from the moment she asks me how I’ve been.
I see a GP. Spend the night at my sister’s place. I see my psychiatrist, who manages to squeeze me in between two other patients’ appointments.
My body and mind are drained. I’m burnt-out. Deep in a depressive episode. Anaemic to top it off.
I am booked off from work. My meds are changed slightly.
Other Medium Articles
What you can read at the moment, though, is my articles and pieces on Medium!
The pieces at the moment are two creative non-fiction essays and a writing productivity article. The first of the essays can also be read here on the blog: A Green House and Sweet Peas.
“Offering Tea to a Stranger”, which is the second essay, was actually written on 24 August in one go after an event that happened on that Friday. I really just couldn’t shake it off.
Here is the first part of “Offering Tea to a Stranger”:
“I hate shopping. Not so much the act of buying food, but the number of people at the local shops (which is what you get when you live in an enormous city, I guess). See, I get panic attacks — and, boy, do they like showing up when there are too many people and too much noise.
Last Friday, however, when going to the local supermarket, I saw a woman who must be in her seventies, walk down one of the isles. Tinted sunglasses hid half her face. Her crutch was balanced in the shopping trolley, her hands shaking slightly as she slowly walked towards me.
I got out of the way to let her pass, hearing a soft ‘thanks, dear’ as she moved past me. She went to pay at the till next to the one I’d chosen. As usual, I chose the queue that took way longer than it should have and ended up looking at her again. Memories of my grandfather flooded back into my mind.
I remembered well his shaking and trembling as Parkinson’s slowly took hold of his body and the Alzheimer’s emptied his mind of all memories of his family and the world around him.”
The Ruon Chronicles & Patreon
I am busy with the outline of the whole of the Ruon Chronicles series, and the first (new) Patreon article will go live tomorrow. Worldbuilding!
I’m still figuring out the exact timeline for The Knowledge Stones and should be able to finish that this weekend. It’s turning out to be not as much a rewrite as “adding stuff to make it better”.
I’m also adding another POV in order for the reader to be exactly in the know as to what is going on where in the world.
Grove of Graves will then flow out of The Knowledge Stones before book 2 of The Ruon Chronicles starts. I was planning on creating the first full and revised draft of Knowledge Stones by the end of September but, alas, after my two weeks’ rest there is no way I’m going to push myself that hard.
More info will follow on my Patreon page, where you are also able to read the first draft of Knowledge Stones almost in full.
Other Fiction News
In other fiction news, I did write a story for Paragraph Planet and am now waiting to hear if it will be published. Keep an eye on my Twitter feed!
Now that I’m feeling better, I should be back to a normal blogging schedule (not to mention writing schedule), including writing some worldbuilding posts, Friday stuff, and other cool bits and pieces.